GOD IS REVEALING HIS HEART
I spend a lot of time looking into the heart of my Lord as I know Him. Let me tell you, I get lost in this deep well of complex emotions and concepts, I see it no different than trying to dive and bathe into an ocean. Or, embrace the branches of one tree within a forest. Or, even trying to count the endless numbers of stars among our universes. I cannot wrap my mind around the abyss of feelings which I know are true about my Lord. I know He gets sad. I imagine He cries. I know that He has a sense of humor. I’m sure there are times when He laughs and smiles and is filled with joy. I know He gets angry. And there is jealousy within Him. He also has a solid basin of patience beyond the understanding which I can control. Above all these emotions He has an overwhelming amount of compassion and love. Enough (in my opinion) to create a spiritual gravitational force.
With these observations of my creator, I look upon the world & history and I have questions. Why so much senseless pain and suffering among us? Does He allow it for that reason alone? Because it’s senseless and unreasonable and as a species we should be above it? Why allow children to starve to death when there is much food to waste? Why allow the poor and the homeless; not that we all should be rich or that we all deserve abundance. But He promise abundance and love with contentment for those who search out His name and prays for it. No, it is not fulfilling to become rich. Why allow brutal violence and abuse among those who are innocent and does not deserve the suffering? Really, who deserves the suffering?
As an Afro-American in the early 21st century, I look into history and question the morality of slavery. Who deserves to be treated in such a dehumanizing way of living? I see my freedom and am sobered by the lives who died before me to put me here in my living condition. As a father, I question the suffering of seeing a family being sold and dispersed from the core to never be seen by each other again. I look at these facts within history and I ask my Lord why He allowed such a society to dwell here on Earth. Then I’m reminded of the suffering of His son. I remember that my Lord is also a father, and He understands how we as humans must feel. As an Afro-American I question the dehumanization of slavery. Then I remember that in my philosophy there needs to be a season of lament before the final judgement of humanity is complete. I believe that a deep lament over humankind needs to breath through generations for the senseless, unreasonable suffering that took place here among the human race. Then and only then can we begin to understand the compassion, forgiveness, and unconditional love our Lord lavish upon us as He also does with the daylight and the skies. Only when we taste the saltiness in the tears of our creator can we begin to embrace the meaning OF His judgment. (REFLECTIVE SCRIPTURE: Mathew 5:13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses it’s saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything; except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.” Only after one lament can one begins to see justice.
